Rayna Johnson

30 days

2011-03-31T13:00:00.000-07:00

Day 1 — Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play

1. Bulletpoof-La Roux

2. I dont understand- Rooney

3. What and What not- Bayside

4. Stolen- Dashboard Confessional

5. I'd Rather Be With You- Joshua Radin

6. Mud on the Tires- Brad Paisley

7. I Do- Lisa Loeb

8. Sunsets and Car crashes- The spill Canvas

9. Im Leavin- Jesse McCartney

10. We are the World- Artist for Haiti

Day 2 - Your best friend-My Best Friend is Laycee Willhite, We have been through so much together, we have been best friends for about 6 or 7 years, she now lives in New Jersey but she is always gonna be my bestie! But i also consider Emily ,Chase, and Jeanie my best friends as well we all have such different relationships and i couldnt ask for better friends than what i have!!

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — A picture of something that makes you happy

Danny And i Two years ago, how i miss that boy more than anything

Day 5 — Your dreams

*I dream to get married one day
*I dream to have my own family
*temple marriage
*fall in love
*be a vet
*live on the beach
* to be good
*adopt a child in russia

Day 6 —Nicknames you have & why you have them

RAYNERS- thats what Chase has called me since high school im not sure how he can up with it but it kinda just stuck
Rain Rain- i guess its easier to say than Rayna hahah or just more fun
Rayna the Raging Russian- Cassies husband Brian started calling me that one day and now he always calls me that since im from russia

Day 7 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 8 — Someone who always makes you happy

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — Something you crave for a lot

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Yourself at 13

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 —Who are you?

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — A picture of you and your family

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

Commitment

2010-11-07T12:34:00.000-08:00

I don’t have a fear of commitment- I have a fear of abandonment.
We all screw things up, I screw things up.
Especially with the people I love.
I get needy, I get moody, I get distant, I want to be too close.
I get confused, I don’t understand all of it.
But I keep pushing because I hope in this thing. The universe.

There’s no way I’m the only person out there who wants something this bad

If I want it someone else out there must too.

Its totally how i feel lately, i have always been the type of girl that gets scared and runs away when i have a problem or when i am about to get close to someone, I just have this fear and i dont even know what it is that im afraid of, i just take off running.
I know im still living in the past i keep seem to keep moving forward, I met a new guy who is amazing and treats me like im the world to him, he says the perfect things and does the greatest things and im still stuck on a guy who doesnt want me anymore, why cant i just forgive and forget?

I need to be strong i NEED to do this, I want to be with this guy im gonna commit and im not gonna get scared or run from him, I need to stop analyzing and to just let it happen, if i get hurt or if something bad happens then is happens there is nothing i can do to change that, as long as i learn from mistakes and not let them happen again. ENJOY LIFE!

HAPPY

2010-10-31T21:42:00.001-07:00

"I hope that someday, somebody wants to hold you for twenty minutes straight, and that's all they do. All they do is wrap you up in their arms, without an ounce of selfishness in it."

I have been hanging out with the most amazing guy! his name is Brent, man that boy drives me crazy he is soooo amazing in every way! the quote above is totally him! he is always there for me and will just come over for a sec to give me a single hug and make sure im doing okay, he doesnt ever leave me when im having a hard day he stays till im happy and okay! Brent is the nicest guy i have met he has the most amazing personality and im so lucky he is in my life, it couldnt have been a better time for me to meet him. Im crazy about this guy and he makes me so happy , i just wanted to brag about how lucky i am and how blessed i have been to meet him, everything happens for a reason :) AHHH life is just too great!

Brent And I! ( what a stud he is)

8 ways to win my heart

2010-10-22T15:34:00.000-07:00

1. Make me Laugh and Smile

2. Stand up for me

3. Dont be embarrassed to be seen with me

4. Give me your jacket when its cold

5. Sing to me even if you cant sing ill still love it

6. Dont be a jerk in front of your friends

7. Protect me, but dont be overprotecting

8. Never lie to me, always be truthful

Utah is a beautiful place

2010-10-05T15:26:00.000-07:00

Missy and I

the sun going down

SOOOO pretty!

My friend Missy and I drove up the canyon and took some pictures of the trees changing colors, Utah is so gorgeous, i dont really realize it till im out in nature enjoying it but its truely so beautiful! i love Utah!

Canyon Day with the Girls

2010-10-01T16:59:00.000-07:00

My roommates and I went up to Squaw Peak to take some pictures it was the perfect day and we had a lot of fun!

15 interesting things about me....

2010-09-30T15:08:00.000-07:00

1. I can stay up all night long
2. I can eat pasta every single day
3. Underwear shopping is my favorite thing
4. i have a brother who is a sumo wrestler
5. I am obsessed with Taylor Swift
6.I used to be an orphan
7. i own about 15 bottles of perfume
8. My nickname is giggle master 5000
9. i eat a candy car every single day
10. I tend to always fall for the bad boys..
11. I like to think im really funny alot of the time
12. Growing up i was always Innocent Rayna
13. i would pick living with animals over humans
14. I love getting my picture taken
15. i secretly want to be a Singer

Hello, Summer!

2010-06-16T09:53:00.000-07:00

Summer is finally here! WAHOOO!!! i have so many adventures and plans for this summer:

Wearing Shorts and tank tops
Swimming
Stargazing in the mountains
Warmth of the sunshine
Bike Rides
Picnics
Outdoorsy pictures
Roadtrips
Love
Camping
Shaved Ice
July 4th
Concerts
Staying outside all night talking with friends
Flip flops
Hiking, Fishing
Longboarding
BBQs
Scooter rides
Soccer games

AHHH! im so excited for summer 2010!! bring it on!!

Smile, for a change

2010-05-23T17:11:00.000-07:00

Feeling left behind. When did I get so lost? Everyone's moving on. I just can't seem to catch up. The walls are closing in, and I'm getting smaller by the ~~second~~. At the end of the day, I'm watching everyone slip away. Every fall is planned, and second chances never come. As time slips further and further away from me.
I miss the people who i really love, i miss having real friends who care about how i feel and who would drop anything just to make sure i am okay, i feel like im falling away from everyone or everyone is falling away from me im not even sure.
I feel like im always wishing on stars to get my life back into order, i know somewhere out there their is love and i know somewhere out there i can make my dreams come true and just become the person i really want to be.On the good days, I feel like I get it, like it all makes sense. I can stay in the moment. I don’t have to control everything in the future, and I believe everything is going to work out fine. On the bad days, I just want to grab the phone and start dialing numbers. I want to pull my hair and run through the streets screaming.

Last year i was dating this guy, he was amazing, he had every quality i have ever wanted in a guy, i was so happy when i was with him, but at the same time i was so scared he would just leave one day so i would break up with him and get back together the next day, I did this about three times, then the last time he broke up with me cause he was tired of my confusion and he knew i would just do it again, well i didnt really care when we broke up for the first week i was fine, but months later i realized what i had lost and what a catch he really was. A year later im still stuck on the same boy and i really would marry him in a heartbeat as crazy as it sounds. I need to find a way that i dont get scared to put myself out there and not always assume people are going to leave, its been the hardest thing dealing with this pain i have cause i miss him so much. i have to let go its pointless to hang out to something that isn't going to happen. I just wish it didnt have to hurt this much this pain is too hard and im not that strong.
it shouldnt be so hard it should be simple to let go and forget so that is what i am going to be working on now just being the happy girl i used to be and getting my life back into order. Pray for me!! :)

tHiNgS tHaT mAkE mE hApPy!!

2010-01-14T23:31:00.000-08:00

A while back I was asked by a friend on what really makes me happy, here are some things that I came up with..

*LAUGHING
*DANCING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD
*TAKING A HOT SHOWER
*LONGBOARDING
*GETTING MAIL
*RUNNING THROUGH THE SPRINKLERS
*ROADTRIPS
*FRIENDS
*MUSIC
*READING QUOTES
*TAKING PICTURES
*ITALIAN SODAS
*HOT TUBBING AT NIGHT
*ORCA WHALES
*RED WALLS
*STARGAZING IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE
*DANCING IN THE RAIN
*GOING TO CONCERTS
*HAVING CEREAL PARTIES
*LOOKING AT A MAP OF THE WORLD
*NOT HAVING TO WAIT IN LINE AT THE STORE
*CONVERSATIONS THAT LAST ALL NIGHT LONG
*READING A GOOD BOOK
*MEETING NEW FRIENDS
*BUYING NEW CLOTHES
*DOING NICE THINGS FOR OTHER PEOPLE
*WARM TOWELS FRESH OUT OF THE DRYER
*WAKING UP AND REALIZING YOU STILL HAVE TIME TO SLEEP
*HOT COCOA
*LONG NECKLACES
*BOYS
*VACUUM LINES
*HAVING A FULL TANK OF GAS
*LISTENING TO THE RAIN OUTSIDE

Little too much

2009-10-13T10:15:00.000-07:00

I have no idea what i want in life right now, I dont know where im going with it, i just feel like nothing ever works out for me. I feel like when i have a big chance to do something great i get scared to try and i stop with that plan and try for something else. I dont understand why its so hard for me to do new things i guess im just afraid of failing or never being good enough, I just feel stuck between my past and my future, there are so many things i would love to do with my life, i want to go to school i want to travel to a different country and visit orphanages, I want to be able to have a guy who i wont be afraid to be with and just not be afraid to let people in 100%. But then at the same time i just sit by the window curl up like a ball and just think about how fun things used to be years ago and the great guy i lost because i was too scared to give him a chance. I dont want ot be scared anymore i want to be the confident girl who isnt afraid to try new things and learn new things i want to be the girl people admire and say " Wow she has come a long way to get here". I think i have forgotten what its like to just not always have to make other people happy but to make myself happy, i worry so much about making sure everyone around me is happy i just forget about me and finally i just need to have a mental break down and let everything i had bottled in out. I really want to be my old happy confident Rayna that i know and i know i need to make some changes in my life and that is what i am going to start, im just gonna do things i enjoy and not let people walk over me Im gonna be strong and just live the life that i really want =).

Hope for every fallen man

2008-12-17T22:11:00.000-08:00

I finally have decided i needed to update my blog, i have some free time right now, its fabulous.

I was hanging out with my friend Spencer monday night, we went bowling then went and looked at the christmas lights, we had some great conversations on the way drive, i told him i have been struggling with a few things, he just lis

tened to me whine and complain for a few minutes...LOL. he then played

a song for me which was called

"Hope for every fallen man" it was just what i needed to hear, some of the lyrics that really stood out to me were,

Because the Judge of you is someone i could never be, is why you should thank the Lord that it is him, and its not me,

Dont give up its not the end, t

heres hope for every fallen man, to pick themselves up when they think they can,because with every passing second comes a second chance".

I could relate those lyrics so m

uch to

everything that

i told him that night, it was just what i needed to hear

i have really been so sad these past few months ,

i have been feeling alone and even though im always with

friends i still felt alone, after

hearing those lyrics

my attitude changed so quick, its true we all will have

a second chance and we shouldnt give up when we get trials

in ours lives, we just need to get right back up on

our feet and keep moving forward.

happy day!

2008-12-06T21:03:00.001-08:00

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

Good friends!

2008-10-14T22:40:00.000-07:00

So i have had the best couple days lately, i really have the Bestest friends ever! Tonight i hung out with Jeanie and Rachel, man those girls are crazy i love them to death. We first went to Wal-Mart and got stuff to do facials and we also rented the movie " Made of Honor" from the red box and went back to Jeanie's place to watch it, it is such a funny movie we all loved it and thought it was super cute.

After the movie got over we went to the Olive Garden. The best part of the night was at Olive Garden we were just laughing at everything, we were being super silly and couldnt stop laughing about anything, that is why i always have such a blast when i am with those two girls they are so down to earth and carefree its nice to just go out and not have to worry about anything, so im really grateful to have such good friends who can always make me laugh and are always looking out for me! thanks girls!!

2008-09-16T17:43:00.000-07:00

2008-09-16T17:39:00.000-07:00

I've got some hops for a white girl!!